see the moon over soho

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 07:28:02 GMT

Sometimes, I can be an awful, hurtful, and hateful person. Sometimes I'm not sure if the things that I do in the name of self-betterment really are the right thing to do.

God dammit, just let this semester start already.

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 19:06:21 GMT

Doing the right thing is incredibly difficult, sometimes.

Sat, 02 May 2009 13:55:04 GMT

I need a morning cigarette and a morning pee.

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 17:28:03 GMT

Sam is right, you don't get anywhere by being moral.

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 05:05:06 GMT

So Ellis and I finally bought our plane tickets. We're leaving Chicago's O'Hare airport at 9:30 p.m. on September 14th and arriving in London's Heathrow at 11:20 a.m. the next morning.

I am finally struck by how close this is coming, and how little time I have to prepare. Whaaat why I gotta grow up so fast.

Also. Finished Freaks and Geeks today. Finally. I'm halfway in love with James Franco and now I really want to see Pineapple Express. And Seth Rogen is decent, too.

Guhhhhh life is moving sooo quickly.

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 04:43:01 GMT

On a sheep-cropped knoll under a clump of elms we ate the strawberries and drank the wine -- as Sebastian promised, they were delicious together -- and we lit fat, Turkish cigars and lay on our backs, Sebastian's eyes on the leaves above him, mine on his profile, while the blue-gray smoke rose, untroubled by any wind, to the blue-green shadows of foliage, and the sweet scent of the tobacco merged with the sweet summer scents around us and the fumes of the sweet, golden wine seemed to lift us a finger's breadth above the turf and hold us suspended.

"Just the place to bury a crock of gold," said Sebastian. "I should like to bury something precious in every place where I've been happy and then, when I was old and ugly and miserable, I could come back and dig it up and remember."

-- Evelyn Waugh, p. 19, "Brideshead Revisited"

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 14:13:52 GMT

So last night I dreamt that Claire and I were running around a half-flooded Milwaukee (like so flooded you could swim around in Riverside Park) hanging out with Eugene Hutz from Gogol Bordello and David Cross (I think as Tobias Funke), who was dressed like a giant chicken.

...it was probably the most fun I've ever had in a dream. I need to eat half a pot of rip-off brand mac 'n cheese before bed more often.

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 16:44:17 GMT

So now he's joining the marines, too? I haven't spoken to him face-to-face in four years -- and hell, it was fucking middle school -- so why do I feel so perplexed? He's basically a stranger to me.

Fuck this shit, man. Fuck it.

Fri, 30 May 2008 15:16:28 GMT

Shit, son. Shit.

Wish I had some witty, motivational quip to post, but I don't. So I'm just gonna sit here, drink my coffee, eat my yogurt that tastes like Dreamsicles, and piss myself for the next two hours. Then I'll get myself together, get my hair cut, go get lunch with the fam, and then come home and piss myself for another two hours until it's time to go.

Time seems to move incredibly slow on days you're looking forward to something really anxiously.

Tue, 27 May 2008 03:38:07 GMT

Without passing even for salutation Inman said, Who put out your pair of eyes?

The blind man had a friendly smile on his face and he said, Nobody. I never had any.

That took Inman aback, for his imagination had worked in the belief that they had been plucked out in some desperate and bloody dispute, some brute fraction. Every vile deed he had witnessed lately had been at the hand of a human agent, so he had about forgot that there was a whole other order of misfortune.

--Why did you never have any? Inman said.

--Just happened that way.

--Well, Inman said. You're mighty calm. Especially for a man that most would say has taken the little end of the horn all his life.

The blind man said, It might have been worse had I ever been given a glimpse of the world and then lost it.

--Maybe, Inman said. Though what would you pay right now to have your eyeballs back for ten minutes? Plenty, I bet.

The man studied on the question. He worked his tongue around the corner of his mouth. He said, I'd not give an Indian-head cent. I fear it might turn me hateful.

It's done it to me, Inman said. There's plenty I wish I'd never seen.

--That's not the way I meant it. You said ten minutes. It's having a thing and the loss I'm talking about.

Mon, 26 May 2008 14:00:21 GMT

Guys, we graduate in five days. We did it. Holy shit. It's finally done.

And I only need to go to school on Tuesday and for graduation practice on Thursday. And then I never have to go back unless I choose to.

OH MY GOD.

I don't even think I fully realize how happy I am yet.

Even though I recognize that graduation is going to be incredibly moving. The speeches will be cheesey, but they'll get to me. I'll realize that I'm never, ever going to see the majority of these people again, and that I'll even miss the most annoying and insignificant ones because they were such a part of my life for the last four years.

I don't know if any of us truly realize what an amazing right of passage this is.

Bah.

SUMMER. WORK. EUROPE. WOOOOOOH.

Thu, 22 May 2008 04:46:48 GMT

I love how yesterday morning I was too much of an idiot to realize that I was using the mailbox key to try and get into my dad's apartment building. So I moped around for twenty minutes until some kind neighbor let me in. It was not until I was safely taking a shower in the apartment room that I realized my idiocy.

Sat, 10 May 2008 03:31:48 GMT

I love how it's always the gay bartenders that show me the most attention.

Fri, 09 May 2008 01:13:35 GMT

This basically sums up my childhood:

Mon, 05 May 2008 01:03:46 GMT

I AM PEEING.

Another more trivial reason to look forward to the summer.

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 04:24:28 GMT

And that is why David Lynch both fascinates me and makes me want to vomit.

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 02:16:16 GMT

So I got off of work on Friday. :)

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 12:49:41 GMT

You know, there really is no such thing as a good or bad situation, it's just how you interpret it and let it affect you. Which isn't to say that letting a situation effect you poorly is a bad thing, because sometimes that can lead to other things that are incredibly profound, things you'd never discover if you were in a constantly positive state of mind.

Sometimes I think there's just too much to ponder.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 12:05:30 GMT

After watching that movie you really realize that your problems don't mean a damn when compared to some other people's.

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 22:18:18 GMT

There's nothing better than getting "A Date With John Waters" in your mailbox after school.

Can you tell what's on my mind
She's with him, it drives me wild
I'd like to hit him on the head
Until he's dead
The sight of blood is such a high
Ooooooh
He gives me head

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 00:21:37 GMT

Work was so slow today that Frank Alia sent the phonegirl to get ice cream from Babe's for all of us. So we spent forty-five minutes just sitting in back and eating ice cream. And then Frank Tenuta sent all of the non-waiting/kitchen/bar staff home a little before seven. And I walked home. And it was the most glorious day of work ever.

these days.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 12:37:02 GMT

I've been out walking
I don't do too much talking
These days, these days.
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had the chance to.

I've stopped my rambling,
I don't do too much gambling
These days, these days.
These days I seem to think about
How all the changes came about my ways
And I wonder if I'll see another highway.

I had a lover,
I don't think I'll risk another
These days, these days.
And if I seem to be afraid
To live the life that I have made in song
It's just that I've been losing so long.
La la la la la, la la.

I've stopped my dreaming,
I won't do too much scheming
These days, these days.
These days I sit on corner stones
And count the time in quarter tones to ten.
Please don't confront me with my failures,
I had not forgotten them.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 01:58:19 GMT

Two reasons why Welcome to the Dollhouse is the one of the greatest movies of all time:

Number 1:

and

Number 2:

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 04:40:06 GMT

Just so y'all know, Johnny Depp has officially landed in Wisconsin. Apparently he's currently filming in Oshkosh.

Just so you know.

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 23:55:56 GMT

It's settled. After college, Claire and I are going to live in Baltimore until we can't take it anymore.